What image comes to your mind when I tell you I’m a webcam model? Thanks to the long history of stigmatized sex work and the fear and misunderstanding of my industry I’ll bet it’s an image of me bent over in front of a screen, red-faced and naked trying to make a quick buck. Then perhaps you’ll enjoy a little run down of the reality of webcamming, and a peek into the online relationships that have earned me thousands over the years. The names have been slightly altered to protect my clients.
‘Romeo’
This self-proclaimed Romeo has visited my chat room for about 3 years. We type, no talking and I’ve never seen his face. What he lacks in vocabulary he makes up for in predictability and we exchange the same pleasantries each and every time. He tells me I’m stunning and he’s still looking for the perfect restaurant to take me to dinner (must be quite a search 3 years on). He asks me what I’d wear for our date and how I’d be feeling, what perfume I’d have on and how I’d like the evening to go. If I can sense he has time I’ll slowly drip-feed him every little detail of our imaginary date. I could copy and paste the conversation we’ve had it so many times but out of respect for the hundreds he pays me, I tweak the fantasy here and there to keep it exciting for him. We can have the exact same conversation 2/3 times a month and he never tires of my creative storytelling. I never remove any items of clothing, only offering him a sly smile and the contents of my imagination.
‘Gregg88’
Gregg is one of my favorites. I see him almost every time I log on and I worry if we haven’t spoken for a while. He lives alone and doesn’t have much confidence when it comes to dating. He often works away and will enjoy logging on to speak to his favorite girls from different countries around the world. Gregg and I laugh over the Tories’ latest blunders. He tells me what series he’s been watching on TV and how he’s discovered a favorite crisp flavor. We discuss philosophy, the arts and our favorite porn stars. He sometimes expresses his gratitude for our online friendship and I tell him he always makes me smile. This isn’t a lie. Sometimes if Gregg and I are in a group chat he will watch as I playfully flirt with other clients, them falling for me hook line and sinker. We laugh about it afterward.
‘MrZone’
Mr. Zone is another easy-to-please client. He likes to talk to me about the wrestling match he’s planning between myself and his wife. We’ve been having this conversation (which is of course fantasy but spoken about as if imminent every single time) off and on for about 4 years. Mr Zone loves if I put on a 1 piece swimsuit and do various poses to show him the different muscle groups. He can tell if I’ve been in the gym a lot and takes pleasure in telling me I would definitely beat his much weaker wife in our contest. He can talk on this subject for so long at around £2 per minute that I earn a good wage but I do have to take my face out of shot sometimes to yawn or have a sip of my herbal tea. Its not much but it’s honest work.
‘Captainman’
Captain man is filth. He knows that I like some small talk before moving into sexual territory so he humours me by asking about my day but I know full well it’s a race to the good stuff. He loves to put his own camera on and would rather hear my voice than type. Sometimes he likes to see my mouth up close playing with things. Sucking on an ice lolly or a toy. If I feel like it then I’m happy to oblige and I enjoy his little face lighting up. Often, he’s feeling submissive and I will give him tasks such as trying on women’s underwear or ill instruct him using toys on himself. I like to play games with him such as flipping a coin and having a task on either side, making him perform for me or if he’s very lucky I might do him a strip tease or give him JOI. No 2 sessions are the same with Captain man and I very much enjoy seeing where it can take us. I find inspiration in everyday life and find myself on a train with a sudden idea or try out on him next time I see him. He always tips.
These are just 4 of a long line of regulars I’ve built over the years. I also have new clients who come and go but the loyal ones stay close to my heart. I would say of the tens of thousands of cam sessions I’ve had, less than 5% have ever said anything disrespectful. I’d get worse comments in a bar than in my chat room and I can lay on my sofa eating doritos drinking herbal tea. My chat room is my space and I have total control and creative freedom. Sometimes I wear latex, others lingerie, sometimes I’m in gym wear or my office clothes. Every time I am unapologetically me, and I love this job and my weird and wonderful clients.
